Am trying to keep on updating this blog cause, I miss blogging. haha. Okay, let's start this blog post as happy as ever.



7th of April 2013, marks th date that I'm not an USS virgin anymore. Yay! After like trying to go and kept on failing due to busy schedule, but hey, I finally went! Woke up at 7.30 on a bloody Sunday. Feels like going to school instead. Reached at about 10.15am? Around there. Bought our ticket at $55, and off we went in! I'll be honest, I've never rode any roller coaster ever in my life so........ I don't know how to feel. :l Yani was like asking to go for th mini roller coaster. Th one not scary at all, for warm up. That's what she said.

So my first ever ride is errrr......... Jurassic th water thingy. Lol pardon me I don't know all of th rides name. HAHAHA. All I said. Didn't really get wet so I'm like ok. Then what dk la canopy or what. k really la idk. So then, we were supposed to go for th "warm up" roller coaster ride, but no, Yani and Shalini dragged me to th scariest roller coaster ride first. Siao, I'm like half dead sia. Th red roller coaster, and they sat like at th last row which is llike th scariest. Scary shit sia wtf I scream for like th wholeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ride. HAHAHA. Thanks to that, my throat is in pain right now. Can't talk much in class today, cries.

Watched th underwater show and it's so cool I swear. Their hero and heroine cast are so handsome and pretty! Since first timer right, everything is exceptionally fascinating to me. I like. We sat in th soaked area yet we're not soaked. How contradicting.

After like a few rides, ate at Goldilocks! Was super full after that so we went around watching 4d stuffs. Oh th best thing ever was th transformers. Fucking hell whoever build that is a fucking genius. Went all th rides for th second time and woah shiok la from 10 to 7. Parade was adorable. I'm just sad I didn't get th chance to take pic with th elmo mascot or puss in boots. :( But th madagascar penguins and th king who(?) will do, hehe.


Had dinner at Yew Tee since Shalini went home instead of having dinner with us. Walked from Sentosa to Vivo and I don't get it why our legs are freaking tired and painful after that. Like wtf and what's worst was we didn't even walk much. We freaking used th travelator. Why? ._.
Homed at around 11 and then slept at 12. Was freaking tired from all those ride and laughter and screaming. Couldn't accept th fact that there's school th next day. Th thought of it just makes me sick, ugh.

Anyhoo, let's talk about today now. Ok today isn't really my day, seriously. Th fact that I went to school feeling so tired just adds up th crankiness.

Went to school early for I&E, so had no choice to skip training. Found out that my group was like selected too for th I&E, knn we all didn't plan in advancing. Blearghhhhhhhh. So I tried to talk to people and my throat is killing me whenever I speak. It's like someone shove down a fucking knife down my throat. -.- So whatever it is, had to make a presentation board by Friday. Ugh troublesome like shit. But since we're selected alrd, might as well give our best shot till th end, isn't it? Done with I&E then went to th stadium for morning assembly. Sat with John and his friend and me being me forever disturbing John. Keep untying his shoelace hahaha. GP lesson Ms Liao didn't came so I literally slept after doing a paragraph of th essay that needs to be done. For that one hour plus, slept till th next lesson. So I don't really know what's happening around me. All I know Kai Jun used my phone for games. Forever sia he. Chemistry was th next lesson, how I hate chem right now. If John didn't poke me with his pen, I would still be sleeping. Hahaha thanks a lot eh, no idea why your pen so sharp. >_< Half asleep during Chem but somehow can catch up la huh. When teacher keep on asking question and I had to answer I'm like fuuuuuuuu I can't talk loud so painful. Break at lib, math next. Mr Goh didn't came too so did my Math homework in class, kept on asking Zul on how to do th question. Throat is like forever killing me whenever I speak. So I shut my mouth like 3/4 of th day and only speak when people ask me qns or I need to talk. MT, haiya I hate language lesson, nuff said. Went to library after school to complete my homework and then left school at 5. This isn't a long post if it's not because of th pictures. Hehs.

Hey, have you ever thought of my feelings? Like how I felt, like what I'm going through, like what problems I'm facing. Have you? Nope. Do you know how long I smiled in front of you guys just to let you know that "Oh I'm fine it's okay don't bother about me. None of your words hurts me." Do you? Nope. I don't know what to feel at a certain time. I don't know what's worst than crying just as I reach home from school. Crying without you knowing it's pretty hard. I don't know if I even mean anything to you at certain point. I don't know why I've been hiding my problems away from you. Maybe cause you weren't there when I needed you. You weren't there to listen to me. Everything you said you did was good for me. Was it? Or was it good for you only? I'm so good at hiding my feelings that you think I'm always ok. You don't know what it's like to be hurt, to be on th edge of breaking down. You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay. Th only reason why people say I'm a cheerful people cause I don't want anybody to know how sad I am. I learnt that if I share, nobody would give a fuck. Yep, because you weren't there to listen, I kept my mouth shut. I kept on forcing myself to be happy, in front of everybody I know. It's like putting up on a show. At one point of time, you said about how you would like ditch me somewhere cause I'm such a burden. Remember those words? Yes it's like a fucking scar. I can't forget that, I can't forget how hurtful it is when you said tht. Th only reason I'm in MI now cause of you, your future too. So whenever I failed my test or exam, don't say I didn't study when I fucking did. I really tried my best. It's not like I didn't. If I didn't, I wouldn't give a fuck in doing th exam, I would just drop out from school and be miserable. But did I? No. Th fact that you're always blaming me and putting high hopes on me sucks ok. It has always been like this, blaming me for everything. Cutting my wings of freedom as well, please remember that I grew up. I'm going to be seventeen in like a few days time. How long do you want to refrain yourself from letting me go? Yes I'm a girl but I have a brain too. I know what's right and what's wrong. I know how to take care of myself too. But this scolding and blaming me shits, I don't give a fuck at all. Do whatever you want. All I really want is you to be actually there for me whenever I'm down shower me with your love and pamper me at times when I need one. But I guess, this won't be happening at all. Hehs. I'm sick and tired of all this shits, but I guess I've been enduring so much. Will forever continue my daily routine, putting a smile on my face to everybody and be cheerful no matter how much I'm dying inside. Yep. Good bye.